Hey! Welcome back.
Today I felt some urges, or overall horniness I guess. It's weird how you think differently about the same topic based on different body conditions.
I'm still firm in my plan, but it's like my body has resetted from of wanting to abstain. I don't care. My mind is in control.
Today I read about a similar blog site similar to this one on the same topic of porn detox. The author had been addicted for 14 years. It's crazy to just think about it.
You never think it could happen to you, but let the bad habits stay and time pass and sure enough you'll end up in that same situation.
Gravity doesn't affect just our earthly bodies, but our minds and spirits.
I think I want to add a quote block on the front page of the website and fill it with cool thoughts I had about porn/life in general, might be a good way to align myself everyday.
I don't want to end up talking about the same topics everytime on here, but that's what's going to happen very soon.
Thinking about it in these days: porn birthed my loneliness. Escaping in the harem world where you are accepted whenever and in any conditions, leads you to refrain from normal everyday interactions that are not so welcoming.
It's easier to chip into porn rather than real-world relationships. This "chipping into the cheaper alternative" is something I think about quite often.
If in a hypotethic future people would be offered the chance to escape from this reality, through virtual reality or whatever, to join a personally tailored one that is identical to our very own life but that as time progresses changes to reward us increasingly, how many people would let go "here" to join "there"?
Would I us a human do such a thing? I obviously say no, but I can see how it could happen even to me. We generally think of ourselves better, cleaner and smarter. Heck I replaced real people with porn, so what could stop me from doing such a thing with reality as well? What if it happened in a very subtle way? Just like as porn did with me? Like the frog boiling in water.
The only thing that can save us is observing carefully and thinking. Not just thinking, but thinking real hard, and being ready to let go of stuff that makes that "virtual insanity" (as someone once defined it) truer. I choose to be mindful of myself. To observe my bad behaviours and take action, to live my life truly and as myself only, without being manipulated by anybody else.